I want to be THERE

I can’t believe we’re already to July.  I feel like we’ve hit the midpoint of summer and it’s one big slide back to fall and the schedule it brings.  We leave for Maine in two and a half weeks.  Can you just IMAGINE what it will cost us in gas?  Are we NUTS?  Yup.  But I can’t wait.  It’s kind of a financially decadent thing but one I think we all need.  Of course I will worry greatly about my mother while we are gone but her homecare worker is devoted and I know will step up if needed.  Work and life have been relatively relaxed of late but I do feel the need to get away.  Just AWAY.  Ernie’s oncology appointment is the week after we get back….I wish it were before we went but we’ll both try to put the worry aside. 

I love low tide….I just think it’s sexier but Leo loves high tide.  He has made me promise we’ll go to high tide at least three times this year.

I just want to sit on the beach, read a book, watch the boys chase each other in the waves, talk to my sister while we bob through the swells, watch Ernie doing crosswords on the beach, go back to the house and cook with fresh seafood and curl up with Ernie at night.  I want all the things I need to do at work and at home to not constantly pop into my mind.  I want to not worry about my mother. I want to take naps after being at the beach even if I do end up with sand on the bed.  I want the taste of saltwater on my lips and I want to see the beach roses. I want to watch my sister make lobster just the way my grandpa used to.  I want to visit the cemetery where my grandparents and uncle are buried and drive by their old house….the one I loved so as a child and dream about to this day.  I want to eat hot dogs with New England hot dog rolls and visit my favorite antique dealer Bob.  I want to feel more like myself….the way I feel when I’m in Maine.  I want to drive through the salt marsh on the way to Higgins Beach and Crescent Beach.  I want to visit Two Lights and scramble over the rocks.  I want to find tiny little crabs in the tidal pools and hunt for shells at low tide.  I want to be in Maine.  I want to be THERE.