Could This Technically Be Called A Breakdown?

For some reason yesterday's trip to the ER etc. with my mother was particularly hard.  Maybe it was because she tried to refuse to go....maybe it was because of the confusion from the infection....maybe it was just sitting in my least favorite bay in the ER for hours (great nurse though).  Whatever it was....I was so exhausted when I got home I could barely stay awake.  Ernie and the boys were really kind to me.  I tried to watch the news with Ernie at 5:00 pm but all I wanted to do was sleep.  I could barely keep my eyes open.  Finally I told Ernie I was going to just lay down for a little while and to wake me up at 6:00 p.m.  I went upstairs and collapsed onto the bed in a puddle of exhaustion.

Of course 6:00 came and went and I told Ernie all I wanted to do was sleep.  He kindly flapped my blanket per my request and gave me a kiss.  I laid there drifting in and out of sleep.  The bedroom door was open so I could hear the boys alternately squabbling and laughing.  Some of the utter physical exhaustion began to fade and by 9:00 I didn't ache with tiredness as I had but the thought of getting up was still overwhelming so I stayed in bed.  I tensed up a couple of times when the phone rang but nobody came to get me so I relaxed back into sleep.

All told I slept about 13.5 hours and I swear I could have happily stayed there longer.  I'm up though and feel much better.  Have to cancel the wound clinic appointment for today, probably cancel the appointment with Dr. Peter the next day but I'll wait to see what happens.

Today Ernie goes for blood work and tomorrow we see his oncologist and get the results...then his infusion and injection.  

Very busy week at work.  I was supposed to work over the weekend.  I did as much as I could on my laptop in the ER until my battery got too low.  Hopefully I can get it done at work today as by evening I may be ready for another 13.5 hours.....