To Run or To Crawl?

I have an appointment later this morning and I just realized that my antsiness is anxiety...or worry.  Are they the same thing?  I guess not.

It's a funny thing.  Sometimes people ask me how I can put so much of myself out there online but honestly....there is SO MUCH that I don't put out there...or more accurately...right here.  So many issues or relationships that I just don't share.  Honestly,  I wish I could....it would feel like such a huge relief to write about every single thing that goes through my head....every bit of my life.  But I can't.  It may seem like I don't have an editing switch but unfortunately I do....

Right now I just want to crawl back into bed or go stand under a hot shower for an hour.

I don't want to be an adult.

I don't want to be responsible.

I want to run away.

But I won't....I won't.  I've got too much good in my life to really want to run away.  Crawling back into bed though?  Now THAT would feel good.

my tulips on their last legs....they're gone now and I miss them....