A Quick Spring Weekend
Man I couldn't sleep last night. I don't know why....no particular worry but my mind was just racing and racing. I finally fell asleep only to have horrible dreams about dying and members of my family dying....nursing homes and hospitals and people falling to their death.....not a restful night.
A particularly short weekend...although Mother's Day was lovely. Worked part of Saturday and then sat and fussed not wanting to leave the guys with such a stormy sky that evening and so missed a Derby party we'd been looking forward to. Leo was a little sick Friday and Saturday so I couldn't force him to go as I would have normally. Once I adjusted to the change in plans it was nice to be home and Leo seemed fine this morning. I can trust Leo---if he tells me he feels sick well then he feels sick...and no matter how much he hates school he won't try to tell me he's sick if he's not. Owen? Not so much.
Mother's Day feels very different with my mother and mother-in-law both gone now. I guess in some ways I should be 'now it's all about me!' but it just feels lacking a little bit. At lunch Owen did suggest I get a grilled cheese so "it would be like Grandma was here." And he also thought Ernie and I should go visit the cemetary to see out mothers' graves but I declined. Ernie cooked me a fabulous dinner of grilled smoked pork chops from the farmers' market, a shaved raw asparagus salad! and potatoes with rosemary. The boy is good.
I'm still incredibly amused that after the family wide meltdown on Friday evening that Owen and I both went and wrote a blog post.....very similar ones I might note. Owen does an amazing job of trying to deal with his feelings....whether it's tearing paper into strips or writing. That boy is a wonder....hard to imagine what he'll be like as a man but I know it will be good. As will be my beloved big head Leo who just hovers sweetly and gives me soft kisses. Owen had the card with a picture of a parade on the front and the present they'd made at school. Leo just came up behind him and after awhile quietly said, "Owen was going to let me sign the card but he didn't give me a chance." I told him that was fine as long as I got lots of kisses so he acquiesed. They are both the best guys in the world.
They helped me garden yesterday....well, actually I sat and 'planned' and they worked. Every so often Owen would look over and say, "oh Mom, are you still PLANNING?" and I would just nod and smile..... Leo said he hated it but then he did about five times as much as I had asked so I think he had a good time as well.....
One of my heucheras didn't make it through the winter but the others look happy....
and my beautiful solomon's seal that my friend Kathleen Jones gave me.....