Me?

I dragged myself to the doctor yesterday. Actually it was his Physician's Assistant (who was delightful) since it takes something like six months to get an appointment with him these days. I dragged myself in because they said in order to get my prescriptions refilled I HAD to. Last time he lectured me (kindly) so much about my weight that I convinced myself I wouldn't go back until I'd lost some weight.

Whoops.....forgot to do that. So I warily pushed myself in and tried to look away when they weighed me (I am SOOO good at denial....just ask my husband). I couldn't help but see it and fortunately I was actually down a few pounds from last time. Not enough to be proud of but at least I wasn't up any.....

Everything else was fine, fine, fine and she renewed my prescriptions. I did break down and tell her about the pain I've had running down the back of my legs. Given my mother's history with spinal stenosis I have tried to just pretend this wasn't happening (see above note about denial). It has been increasing over the last year or so however and I finally admitted to it. She said it could well be that given how even it is on both my legs....that it must be something central like my spine. We talked about it a bit and I will talk about it with my doctor when I see him next. It frightens me a little but just because my mother had no luck with treatments does not mean that I won't.

I swear to God I never agreed to this aging crap. How can this be ME?

Hmph.

That being said, some of my favorite people that are around my age have birthdays this week and I'm damn glad I have them around so I will try to gratefully accept all the crap that comes along with the continuing birthdays....

And to further brighten my day....here is my sweet pea at the 7th grade presentation of their dream jobs. Lord but I love him. Mind you, he may not look happy...but there is NO HAND IN FRONT OF HIS FACE!