Back to Random Thinking....
1. Ernie leaves tomorrow for his show and I kinda hate to see him go. Usually as much as I miss him it's good to have the boys to myself for a bit(well, except for when it's not but you know what I mean). And it's always good for him to get a chance to actually speak to other adults and have a few kid-free days. This time though...I hate to have him leave. With everything that's gone on I am holding tighter to him than I ever have....and given that we're pretty much joined at the hip well...that's pretty damn tight. It will be fine...a measly two nights without out him as I think the boys and I are going to go up and join him for one night. But just the same.....
2. Some GOOD news from the University of Illinois today! They are NOT going to move Mumford House. Praise the Board of Trustees and everyone who protested the move and helped organize the protest (including my own beloved Kathleen Jones). I have to admit I didn't write a letter as I had planned but then again I'm not at my best these days. This is cause for celebration though! The thought of moving that house out of its historic context for basically no reason whatsoever just made me sick. THANK YOU TO EVERYBODY THAT PROTESTED THE MOVE! Email the Board of Trustees and say THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU.
3. I've kind of had my heart and mind on lockdown in terms of Judi. Between the pain of losing Judi and the turmoil associated with worrying about Ernie, I just couldn't think or talk about her except in the most abstract way. That's starting to lessen a little bit. I'm starting to be able to think about her again. It still hurts....and of course as with all grief as I have learned....it comes in waves. I often think about the last few weeks when I would lay on the bed next to her and she would tousle my hair and pat my head and tell me she loved me. I miss her. I'll miss her forever. But of course I knew I would.
4. The other day we asked Owen if he wanted to learn how to playguitar. He said, "only if Adam Schmitt teaches me." Uhhhhhhh......Owen....I don't know how to tell you this......