Snowy April Thoughts

Yup....snow in April.

I called my mother to see what groceries she wanted me to pick up after work and she had forgotten that I was going to do that---and was  having her homecare worker go instead.  Can't complain about that....

She is getting quite fearful of transferring herself from her wheelchair.  Yesterday afternoon as I got her ready to get into the car she sighed and sad, "I'm getting worse you know."  I told her I knew and that I worried about her.  Then I told her that with everything that was going with Ernie I didn't see how we could have her move in with us.  I think we both knew this but I had never said it straight out.  She said of course she understood that.  I told her that since I don't know exactly what the future holds----I have to put Ernie first---and that even though I feel terrible doing that...I have to.  She told me that of course I should do that.  We should have continued the conversation about WHERE she should be living then but I was crying and trying to drive and she was saying, 'oh, honey.'