I Never Signed Off on This.....

I seem to be losing my sense of time and place.  Yesterday I tried to convince my colleagues that it was April....then I emailed someone about babysitting on a Thursday in June and wondered if that was o.k. as it was a school night.  They gently pointed out to me that by June school is out for most....  This morning my colleague at work was late and I didn't have the expected emails from my boss and I began to wonder if perhaps it was Saturday and not Friday.....I was relieved when I heard her key in the lock......

Hmmmmm.....

Today after work I ran to my mothers, did some things for her, she was feeling very ill so I asked if she had taken the pill that she's supposed to take at times like that...."why no" she said in surprise..... Grrrr....

I headed off to the doctor and got all the way to the Curtis Road clinic when I realized I was supposed to be going to the Kirby office....turned around and got there in plenty of time only to be told when I tried to check in that I was supposed to be at the Curtis Road clinic....turned back around and headed to the Curtis Road clinic....

I made it to the doctor's in plenty of time.  The doctor is very kind and asked me how everything was.  I told him.

Then he told me I was officially through menopause and I was just all WHAT THE FUCK?  Aren't I WAY too young for that?  What happened?  One day I was having babies and had a healthy family and all of a sudden I'm an old woman with family members dropping like flies.....how did that HAPPEN? I KNOW I never signed off on this shit....

I never, ever agreed to this.